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I guess you
could say I offically was saved on Nov. 6, 1996 in the front seat
of Pastor Wilson's Honda in the parking lot of Bob Evans. I had
passed by Bob Evans many many times, but after that day I will never
quite look at it the same way. I had had many talks with Pastor
Wilson regarding Christianity and after each talk, I felt like I
needed to talk with him again. I'm sure that was the Holy Spirit
working.
Actually I feel
that my salvation started when I was born, and has been a slow process.
I fought it every step of the way. I was born into the Catholic
faith and followed it as a young boy, until my parents fell away
from it. I was never really introduced into any other faith after
that. I grew up to be the type of person who questioned everything.
I wanted absolute positive truth on anything I was to believe in.
And like most people, I've been lied to, cheated, ripped off, and
had horrible things happen to me and people I love. I found it hard
to believe that there was a merciful and caring God who cared about
me and loved me.
For a long time
I fell away from God completely. Getting back has been a long process
and through much of the process I was kicking and fighting it, fighting
it all the way to my salvation. I've always looked for the perfect
way to live my life and thought I had found it plenty of times and
each time I would find out I was wrong. It's ironic that sometimes
what you're looking for is right in front of you the entire time.
I finally realized that the Holy Spirit had been talking to me for
a long time; I just wasn't listening. Two of the things to open
my eyes were my children. For a lot of people, there is something
about the miracle of having children that changes your views on
a lot of things.
The most perfect
person, lifestyle, role model, hero, and teacher is Jesus. When
you read about him and what he says everything just makes sense.
When I think back on all the mistakes, all the bad choices, and
all the stupid things I've done in my life, I realize that if I
had been following Christ, I probably wouldn't have made all these
bad choices. Even though I have many questions still, life just
seems to make more sense and I have a peacefullness inside that
hasn't been there since I was a child.
Things I read
in the Bible that I didn't understand before are much clearer to
me now and things I thought I understood have a more profound meaning.
A lot of things that used to matter to me I realize are meaningless
and the precious things in my life that could have slipped through
my fingers are more precious than ever.
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